Every month, like a lot of us, I would pick up my prescription in its huge bag to see me through the month. I was on Gabapentin, Oxycodone, amitryptaline and a couple of others to regulate my bowels. It just didn’t seem to make much difference to my pain and caused more side effects than […]Read More Pills, no thrills and bellyaches.
Tomorrow is my birthday, my 44th birthday and 30 years since I was blue lighted to Addenbrookes Hospital with, what turned out to be, a malignant tumour wrapped around my spine and one of my ribs. For the last 29 years I have woken up on my birthday and the first thought has always been […]Read More Cancer has had my birthday for 29 years, this year I’m taking it back.
It’s been a while since I did a blog post and I’ve had a couple brewing for a few weeks, no more procrastination Liz. Blog! So where am I at now? I’ve had some huge changes in my life and a new diagnosis but more of that later. Coping with late effects that turn your […]Read More Another day, another diagnosis.
Death. I’ve had a strange relationship with death : on one hand I’ve always been fascinated with what happens when you die, I was married to an undertaker for 17 years meaning the subject of death was never far from the dinner table however if I thought about dying it would cripple me with fear, […]Read More Facing my fears
This year has been hard physically and mentally for me, I can deal with the physical to an extent but I’ve never dared to look inside my brain until now. I’ve been seeing an Oncology psychologist since spring which has been probably the most sensible decision I’ve made in 2018 but as we all know, […]Read More Money, money, money
Why mourn for something you never had? One sentence that made everything right, thank you Jen (@thecancerchrons) you have no idea how much those words helped. It’s been a roller-coaster of a fortnight (that’s two weeks for the non British!) starting with a trip to London last Monday. I applied for a job with the […]Read More From London to Leeds: job interviews and Twitter meet ups.
In the last few weeks something has changed, it feels like the fog is starting to clear and I can see a future, the last nine months have seen my world turned upside down and its been hard to see anything past the next week the majority of the time. I’m trying to evaluate what’s […]Read More Everything will be OK