Death. I’ve had a strange relationship with death : on one hand I’ve always been fascinated with what happens when you die, I was married to an undertaker for 17 years meaning the subject of death was never far from the dinner table however if I thought about dying it would cripple me with fear, […]Read More Facing my fears
This year has been hard physically and mentally for me, I can deal with the physical to an extent but I’ve never dared to look inside my brain until now. I’ve been seeing an Oncology psychologist since spring which has been probably the most sensible decision I’ve made in 2018 but as we all know, […]Read More Money, money, money
Why mourn for something you never had? One sentence that made everything right, thank you Jen (@thecancerchrons) you have no idea how much those words helped. It’s been a roller-coaster of a fortnight (that’s two weeks for the non British!) starting with a trip to London last Monday. I applied for a job with the […]Read More From London to Leeds: job interviews and Twitter meet ups.
In the last few weeks something has changed, it feels like the fog is starting to clear and I can see a future, the last nine months have seen my world turned upside down and its been hard to see anything past the next week the majority of the time. I’m trying to evaluate what’s […]Read More Everything will be OK
Now for something completely different! Last year we were utterly broke and as it got nearer to Christmas there was a blind panic of how the hell are we going to afford Christmas? A genius idea (of mine!) saved the day and after a conversation with HellomynameisRosie on Twitter I thought I’d share it for […]Read More Santa’s skint.
The new normal is a phrase I bandy about quite often when talking about my current predicament but I’ve never really given much thought to it, until now. Tonight, while soaking my pain away I listened to the latest episode of You, me and the big C podcast which happened to be on this subject, […]Read More Shout out to my head, you’re really quite a mess.
Scanxiety is something I’ve never had an issue with, maybe because of only being 14 when I had cancer, scans and tests were part of growing up. When I started having problems again in the last decade and had to have scans again it was strangely comforting, in a familiar way so scanxiety is some […]Read More Popping my scanxiety cherry